My works are intensely subjective investigations that integrate digital media technologies with performance and traditional media. The pieces variously combine butoh inspired performance, drawing, painting, printmaking, photography, digital manipulation and in the videos, animation, motion graphics and sound to address issues of identity, persona and personal experience. The drawings, paintings, monotypes and performances used in the works are psychological self-portraits often depicting child-like, aging and disjointed figures as metaphors for vulnerability. Exploring emotional responses to experiences such as constraint, shame, self-consciousness, joy, aggression, contrition and loss, the work exposes the messy, scary, ordinary and extraordinary bits of life from a deeply personal point of view.
Ease Me Into Invisibility
painting, motion graphics, video, sound, 5m 3s, 2009-2014
This piece explores aging as a path to social and cultural invisibility. Video and digitized paintings were layered and animated to create a piece which considers the life cycle from childhood to old age and delves into the inevitability most of us face as we age, an awareness of our decrease in value. Deconstructed chords and lyrics from the hymn, I'll Fly Away were used to create the soundscape.
I Want All the Love
drawings, digital manipulation, 2013-2014
An ongoing series of drawings that have been digitized and layered which explores a need for attention and validation that cannot be filled.
monoprints, video, motion graphics, sound, 5m 18s, 2005-2014
This piece explores the relationship between freedom and oppression. Can these exist simultaneously? Can we have freedom in our minds if trapped in our bodies? Can parts of ourselves be free while others are trapped in oppressive circumstances? Monoprints depicting abstract images of oppression were layered with video of dancing bodies performing a dance of freedom and set to sound that evokes feelings of existing in between these spaces.
drawing, photography, digital manipulation, 2013-2014
Nine self-portraits that depict different emotional and physical reactions to grief, loss and dislocation were digitized, manipulated and re-combined with the photographs that were the inspirations for the orignal drawings to create a kind of emotional chaos that reflects accurately a messy tangle - a wad - of feelings.
Am I Who I Am?
drawing, motion graphics, sound 5m 2s, 2013-2014
Who are we? How do we figure it out? What signifiers do we use to know who we are? What happens when those signifiers disappear? Who am I without labels and categories? Employing the concept of the psychological self-portrait, I created nine drawings - psychological self -portraits, which were digitized and animated to create a video which explores the complex emotional reactions to loss of identity and familiarity.
painting, photography, 2011-2014
How do we deal with disappointment, disillusion, rejection and fear? As I continue to explore questions of identity, vulnerability and aging, I find that there are places inside myself that I didn't know were there (or more truthfully would like to hide). I am discovering the mean, violent, spiteful, despairing and self-conscious. I strongly believe I must start by looking at myself if I am to make a difference in the world. This piece looks deeply to see the truth of that self.
video, photography, sound, 5m 55s, 2013
What happens when everything changes? How do we react? Where do we dig in? What is our comfort zone? How flexible or rigid are we? These are the questions with which this video deals. This piece was created during the first 6 months after moving to a new country where everything was different and unfamiliar; and, the sense of loss and being lost was constant. It is an exploration of what it means to change, to shift, to be shifted.
What Is Her Value?
painting, digital manipulation, 2009-2013
Nine psychological self-portraits reflecting various ages were painted. These paintings were digitized, manipulated and recombined to make nine new images. This series explores the questions: What is the value of a person in terms of her age? As we grow older, do we lose parts of ourselves but gain through experience? As we age are we enhanced or diminished?
Another Moment Of Silence
drawing, painting, photography, video, motion graphics, sound, 10m 20s, 2006-2013
This video explores the dichotomy between victim and perpetrator. In this deeply personal piece, I asked myself, when am I the perpetrator, the creator of violence? Where is the line between the violence I enact on the world in little ways everyday and what is done to me. I wondered, why do I always think of myself as on the side of the good? Do we all draw that line that way? In a world with so much overt, mass violence, it is easy to be the victim, or at least, not the perpetrator, but I questioned...is this so?
painting, photography, digital manipulation, 2006-2013
Children are not dolls. They are not property. They are not extensions of someone's egos. They are not toys. This series explores the concept of boundaries of children and what happens when those boundaries are broken.
video, motion graphics, sound, 9m 2s, 2012
This piece explores expressions of emotion...uncontrolled or manipulative, outwardly-focused emotion and repressed feelings that we only let out in private. We are all capable of using, consciously or not, our emotional expressions to manipulate a situation, assure an outcome...to get our way. Similarly, we have all been in situations where we must hide our feelings for the same reasons. Our emotional lives as human beings shape our thoughts, actions and beliefs. In this very personal work, these expressions are exposed to illuminate just how incredibly vulnerable we are.
drawing, video, motion graphics, sound, 6m 5s, 2010-2012
Drawing is the fundamental element of this piece, which explores the physicality and psychology of reproduction. The piece began with pencil and paper drawings and paintings that were digitized and mapped to the bodies in the video to create a visual field of children as the dancer explores movements inspired by infants and toddlers. More drawings and paintings were used for the background. Hummed nursery rhymes provide the sound. These elements combine to create a dream-like world that explores among other things whether to reproduce.
Be A Star...Boom
drawing, painting, digital manipulation, 2010-2012
When childhood is interrupted, whether by hunger, violence, neglect, abuse or any number of other variables, a star is lost. Every child should get to be a star...every child should have a boom! This series is a meditation on childhood. It was created with drawings and paintings that were digitized, manipulated and recombined.
video, motion graphics, sound, 5m 4s, 2012
Abandonment, specifically early childhood abandonment is the theme of this piece. Using physical barriers as a metaphor for the constructs that are created as a reaction to perceived rejection, the video explores the psychology of abandonment and the behaviors that develop to defend against the massive betrayal a child experiences as a result of abandonment. The soundscape describes the attempt to connect over huge emotional gulfs by layering one voice over another as if trying to reach and sync what cannot be.
Solo Party Dress
digital drawings, video, motion graphics, sound, 5m 11s, 2012
What began as a meditation on and a "I cannot pretend this isn't happening" confrontation with neglect and abuse, resulted in this "girls just want to have fun, dancing with myself" piece. Over a period of almost a year, I created drawings of neglected children and animals, digitized them, then digitally drew the negative spaces between the bodies. Using the Buddhist practice of tonglen to transform suffering, multiple layers of these 800+ shapes were animated, and combined with animated graphics, 1920's inspired movement and gypsy-rag sound loops to create a kaleidoscope of eye candy that transforms my pain over the horrors of inhumanity into a "private moment" kind of joy.
The Usefulness Of Persistent Distance
video, motion graphics, sound, 10m 13s, 2011
This video looks at the means by which we use distance to create autonomy. Emotional and physical barriers are constructed for various purposes such as the allowance of intense focus, preservation of sanity or safety and development of the self. The images in this work are metaphorical vignettes that explore distancing behavior.