My works are intensely subjective investigations that integrate performance with digital technologies and traditional media. The pieces variously combine butoh inspired performance, drawing, painting, printmaking, photography, digital manipulation and in the videos, animation, motion graphics and sound to address issues of identity, persona and memory. The drawings, paintings, monotypes and performances used in the works are self-interrogations often depicting child-like, aging and disjointed figures as metaphors for vulnerability that seek to subvert the self while exploring the self. Exploring the question of what it means to be human by looking at the messy, scary, ordinary and extraordinary bits of life from a deeply personal point of view, the work exposes the substance of the human psyche.
Ease Me Into Invisibility
painting, motion graphics, video, sound, 5m 3s, 2009-2014
This piece explores aging as a path to social and cultural invisibility. Video and digitized drawings and paintings were layered and animated to create a piece which considers the life cycle from childhood to old age and delves into the inevitability most of us face as we age, an awareness of our decrease in value. Deconstructed chords and lyrics from the hymn, I'll Fly Away were used to create the soundscape.
What Is Her Value?
drawing, painting, photography, digital manipulation, 2009-2014
This series was created by combining nine psychological self-portraits reflecting various ages, which were digitized, manipulated and recombined with performance stills. This piece explores the questions: What is the value of a person in terms of her age? As we grow older, do we lose parts of ourselves but gain through experience? As we age are we enhanced or diminished?
Am I Who I Am?
drawing, video, motion graphics, sound 5m 2s, 2013-2014
Who are we? How do we figure it out? What signifiers do we use to know who we are? What happens when those signifiers disappear? Who am I without labels and categories? Am I only my feelings? I created nine drawings - psychological self -portraits. These were digitized and animated and layered with the video on which the drawings were based. These elements were combined with a soundscape that was created with sounds from a day in my life and a melody created from numbers of personal significance to create a piece which explores the complex emotional reactions to loss of identity and familiarity.
monoprints, video, motion graphics, sound, 5m 18s, 2005-2014
This piece explores the concepts of freedom and oppression. Can these exist simultaneously? Can we have freedom in our minds if trapped in our bodies? Can parts of ourselves be free while other parts are trapped in oppressive circumstances? Can we tell the difference between oppression and freedom? Monoprints depicting abstract images of oppression were layered with a performance video meant to describe a sort of silly oblivion. These were combined with graphics that are metaphors for the stories we tell ourselves and substances we use to distract ourselves from our oppression. The soundscape evokes feelings of existing in between these spaces.
drawing, photography, digital manipulation, 2013-2014
Nine self-portraits that depict different emotional and physical reactions to grief, loss and dislocation were digitized, manipulated and combined with the photographs that were the inspirations for the orignal drawings to create a kind of emotional chaos that reflects accurately a messy tangle - a wad - of feelings.
video, photography, sound, 5m 55s, 2013
What happens when everything changes? How do we react? Where do we dig in? What is our comfort zone? How flexible or rigid are we? These are the questions with which this video deals. This piece was created during the first 6 months after moving to a new country where everything was different and unfamiliar; and, the sense of loss and being lost was constant. It is an exploration of what it means to change, to shift, to be shifted.
painting, photography, 2011-2013
How do we deal with disappointment, disillusion, rejection and fear? As I continue to explore questions of identity, vulnerability and aging, I find that there are places inside myself that I didn't know were there (or more truthfully would like to hide). I am discovering the mean, violent, spiteful, despairing and overly self-conscious parts of myself. I strongly believe I must look at myself if I am to make a difference in the world. This piece looks deeply to see the truth of that self.
Another Moment Of Silence
drawing, painting, photography, video, motion graphics, sound, 10m 20s, 2006-2013
This video explores the dichotomy between victim and perpetrator. In this deeply personal piece, I asked myself, when am I the perpetrator, the creator of violence? Where is the line between the violence I enact on the world in little ways everyday and what is done to me. I wondered, why do I always think of myself as on the side of the good? Do we all draw the line that way? In a world with so much overt, mass violence, it is easy to be the victim, or at least, not the perpetrator, but I questioned...is this so?
painting, photography, digital manipulation, 2006-2013
Children are not dolls. They are not property. They are not extensions of someone's egos. They are not toys. This series explores the concept of boundaries of children and what happens when those boundaries are broken.
video, motion graphics, sound, 9m 2s, 2012
This piece explores expressions of emotion...uncontrolled or manipulative, outwardly-focused emotion and repressed feelings that we only let out in private. We are all capable of using, consciously or not, our emotional expressions to manipulate a situation, assure an outcome...to get our way. Similarly, we have all been in situations where we must hide our feelings for the same reasons. Our emotional lives as human beings shape our thoughts, actions and beliefs. In this very personal work, these expressions are exposed to illuminate just how incredibly vulnerable we are.
drawing, video, motion graphics, sound, 6m 5s, 2010-2012
Drawing is the fundamental element of this piece, which explores the physicality and psychology of reproduction. The piece began with pencil and paper drawings and paintings that were digitized and mapped to the bodies in the video to create a visual field of children as the dancer explores movements inspired by infants and toddlers. More drawings and paintings were used for the background. Hummed nursery rhymes provide the sound. These elements combine to create a dream-like world that explores among other things whether to reproduce.
Be A Star...Boom
drawing, photography, painting, digital manipulation, 2010-2012
When childhood is interrupted, whether by hunger, violence, neglect, abuse or any number of other variables, a star is lost. And when the star is gone, there is no boom. Distrust and defended-ness are what takes its place. This makes our world a very sad place...very few stars, very few booms. This series is a meditation on loss in childhood and the resulting masked vulnerability that is the by-product. It encourages us to be a star anyway...to boom anyway. It was created with drawings and paintings that were digitized, manipulated and recombined with performance stills.
video, motion graphics, sound, 5m 4s, 2012
Abandonment, specifically early childhood abandonment is the theme of this piece. Using physical barriers as a metaphor for the constructs that are created as a reaction to perceived rejection, the video explores the psychology of abandonment and the behaviors that develop to defend against the massive betrayal a child experiences as a result of abandonment. The soundscape describes the attempt to connect over huge emotional gulfs by layering one voice over another as if trying to reach out and sync that which cannot be.
Solo Party Dress
digital drawings, video, motion graphics, sound, 5m 11s, 2012
Over a period of a year, I created a series of small drawings - psychological self-portraits. I digitized them and then digitally drew the negative spaces between the bodies. Multiple layers of these 800+ shapes were animated and combined with animated graphics, 1920's inspired movement and a gypsy-rag soundscape. This "girls just want to have fun, dancing with myself" piece is a kaleidoscope of eye candy which explores the negative spaces in myself and transforms them into a "private moment" kind of joy.
The Usefulness Of Persistent Distance
video, motion graphics, sound, 10m 13s, 2011
This video looks at the means by which we use distance to create autonomy. Emotional and physical barriers are constructed for various purposes such as the allowance of intense focus, preservation of sanity or safety and development of the self. The images in this work are metaphorical vignettes that explore distancing behavior.